This post will be brief.
It is because just a few minutes before I decided to author this post, I had an amazing realization that I have never ever fallen out of love with the drums despite having to juggle work, study, gigs, and some personal matters.
This is actually a time for me to do a complete overhaul assessment of myself, my personality, all of my actions, all of my words, all of my thoughts, and all of my beliefs, hence, the purpose of my going back to school to pursue a degree. It is a time of commencing the slow process of healing the few unresolved past hurts that have caused anger, sadness, and resentment. It is also a time to build a future where my potential expands and is fulfilled beyond what I originally thought I was capable of. That is…beyond music.
Despite having to take on a heavier load, I still have not stopped practising (albeit, it’s usually 30 minutes to 60 minutes these days, ALMOST daily), pushing myself as a performer, maintaining my professionalism, and listening to new music (the new Jazz stuff out there, and obscure British Jazz artists have been catching my ears lately). As a matter of fact, I was quite amazed at some of the stuff I am pulling off these days – whether it is a complex layered funk groove, a fast chop with fast single-pedal double strokes on the bass drum, or a certain Latin groove/feel for ballroom dancing.
I am also amazed at what discipline, organization of personal time, and deep focus can do for you. 24 hours is truly enough…more than enough, in fact.
I am seriously thinking of participating in some group yoga classes in December and seeing if it is really for me. If not, I will hit the road for long brisk walks and the gym for toning up. I am also progressively cutting down my carbohydrate intake in an uphill struggle to lose weight and get back to my army days shape. That dreaded mid-30’s paunch is bugging me immensely. I recently looked at an old photo of me wearing the “No.1” ceremonial military uniform at the 2006 SAF Day parade and thought to myself, “No way, I look as good with my current shape in that uniform!” It was embarrassing, to say the least.
I look forward to providing more details of my progress (or lack thereof…) in the coming months. Hopefully I can share things like a better physique, better energy levels, a better mood..